Family conversations

Hmmm... today's conversation between my motherdear and my brotherdear did make me think about my current educational situation. My brother keeps on talking about goals, goals, goals and goals... leaving me questioning about my goal. I feel empty. I used to be super determined and ambitious but what happened? I'm slacking, tired of everything and disinterested. How can this only have happened? I mean I do have a goal, but I'm not really believing in it neither am i convicted about it :/ How can I make myself believe that I can achieve anything if I really want to again? How can I build myself up? It is hard because school is tough. You know that you don't belong there and you are surrounded by people who make you feel you don't with their indirect comments and their expectations of you. I'm trying my best to catch up with all the others and I know that I have to prove myself to them, yet again. Being mute all these years didn't get me far, I realised. I've done so many mistakes I could have avoided over the years and that is what I get now. But I am different from the others and that is because I stay grounded. I don't have to be someone with a lot of cash in the future. I don't have to be an CEO at some super prestigeous company. All I want is that I can be happy in future. Be content with my life, have my family and friends around and be grateful for what I have achieved.

Still, my goal for now is to be on track with my tests again, meaning writing C's again and being active and aggressive in class for the next four months.

I gotta keep that in my mind for now. Will keep me motivated :D

=] <3 dont forget to smile.
Ezzy

My love for...

P A R A M O R E finally explained:



In my opinion, they're the BEST EVER. It's their music that got me hooked in the first place. Yeah, I used to be some kid who only listened to My Chemical Romance, Billy Talent and other bands with a rather darker touch BUT they were purely Rock 'n Roll! I think Hayley's voice overwhelmed me and made me want to be like her. Now, over the years, I got to know their music better and even a little bit their personalities. I can say they are the most down-to-earth people in the music business EVER and I really appreaciate them for that. They know where they come from and they know that nothing is ever to be taken for granted. Furthermore, it's their belief in God that inspires me a lot as well and I guess that is also the reason they stay so grounded. They don't take themselves too seriously (looking at the picture) and I think that's what's life about. Sometimes you just can't take everything seriously. You gotta have some fun, somewhere ;D



As for Hayley... if I could ever meet her, I guess that would be the best day of my life. She's such a laid back person and I'm so inspired by her. It's not only that I can relate to her music and her lyrics it is way more because she kind of always surprises people with her lyrics. Who would've thought that 'Turn It Off' is about God and her belief? I envy her for her voice. I'm so impressed by how it always sounds so clear, whether on disk or live. It sounds like Hayley, always and that what makes her so unique, apart from her own fashion sense. I think she would make such a chilled friend to hang with.

As for THAT, people who know me, know that I'm super obsessed by Paramore and their music and everything around it. Thank God that people put up with it. My older brother for instance who's by me selected gifts are always paramore merchs xD Maybe I get a paramore clock for christmas?! or even that 'only exception' necklace! Anyways, what I'm also very very judgmental about is when people cover their songs. I'm not very delighted when people cover their songs because it's just not Paramore-ish. So, you kinda see I'm super protective about Hayley's voice :P weird of me, I know. Anyways, I hope you appreciate the band as much as I do because, they're truly the REALEST band I know out there.

=] <3 dont forget to smile.
Ezzy

"We sure are cute for two ugly people."

The sweetest and dorkiest LOVE SONG =]

You make me smile

you know who you are =] <3

She the best

I thought I'd post this super cool picture of my BFF <3 I LOVE her outfit! Suits her perfectly well =]

C8 beshiiii

=] <3 dont forget to smile.
Ezzy

Is this any good?

So uhmm... this was my outfit for tonight. Since I only wore basics I wanted to give it another edge wearing this long cardigan and this denim gilet. Oh and these super comfy highheels.

=] <3 dont forget to smile.
Ezzy

She laughed, she talked, she laughed, she yawned then she sang =]

It has been a long time. I really has been a long time but I was glad that I met up with my ex-schoolmates. I do miss them in school. I figured they're the certain people who balanced everything out during school time. Anyways, Dominik just couldn't stop being super offensive to Kanika, but that's nothing new. Nicole and I just listened to their complicated, totally incomprehesible conversation. Apart from that it was a fun evening at the super chilled Coffeday in the City :D
Sorry for the really bad picture quality... my phone sucks with no light -.-''


The unnecessary blueberry muffin I ate :/


Ze giiirls - Niggi et Kanikaaa


Dominik all smiles =D

=] <3 dont forget to smile
Ezzy

Patience...

Running Sushi Session

I SWEAR TO YOU, the best suicide attempt you can make, is eating at a running sushi restaurant, indelicately said. I was sooo full that it was hard laughing about my brother's stupid jokes. But then again we didn't go there just to eat, we visited Candy during her shift. She's super cute in her uniform and she does a great job. I used to work in that place and I'll tell you, it was hell of a work. You're on your feet for 12 hours, although not always on the go, as at a certain time not many people visit, still, tough work waiting tables.
After the sushi session Kuya and I walked the Margaretenstraße to digest and walked past the tealicious store. Surprise much, that people were there I knew? No, not really xD Although that store is on my street, I still hadnt got the chance to go there. BUMMER, but soon, but soon ;D Apart from that, I came across a few vintage stores, one which recently opened and looks soooo Monki-like?! Super stoked about that. Hopefully, I'll find the time and have the money to shop there :D yikes ^^


The sushi is ruuuuuning :D



Kuya being the biggest psycho in public again xD


SUSHI POWER +yummy+


Candy aka Valerie 'proudly' presents her uniform - which I used to wear as well :P


Choose L.O.V.E. <3


The new vintage store near my place :DD

=] <3 dont forget to smile.
Ezzy

Lola Aya at 70 =D

My sort-of-lola who actually is my greataunt celebrated her 70th birthday. Shame on me for always thinking she's 63 years old :P Anyways, the family gathered in a Chinese Restaurant in the 13th district. Not really my cuppa tea of district but it was chilled :D So, she's always the person who when watching her favourite soap operas to always scream 'gago' or 'baahnsinn'. She's always the person who says 'ahaaayyy' out of pity and who's always talking in broken German - bless her heart. Since my real lolas and lolos are back in Phili, I can say that she's the only lola I had growing up. And the best thing about her is that she's super caring and I just love when she starts saying 'Pangâ, habst euk schon gegessen?'. So, apart from celebrating lola's birthday, my cousins and far-yet-near cousins also showed up. Of course we caught up as we don't see each other that often, unfortunately. It just makes me realise that we're all growing up so fast. We talk about university, work and of course about future realtionships. It was pretty obvious that my uncle just couldnt help himself to ask me if I had a bf. When I answered no, he was saying I would end up being single for the rest of my life. I just laughed it off. My aunt was like 'naaa, you have enough time. dont rush into things'. How right she is. So as for that, I had a short but great time with the family =D ach, i love family gatherings.


Manang Jomah, Kuya (who should stop acting cool -.-'), moi and Valerie aka Candy =]


My lola's wonderful so-called grandchildren minus my little sister =] Keen being extra cute? and Kuya being totally abnormal again -.-''

=] <3 dont forget to smile.
Ezzy

Mine, mine, mine

The outfit I wore on the day I crashed a birthday party =] crashed it with style, no?!


The outfit that everyone in school made :O - the shorts were kinda short, yeah BUT they have no idea about fashion, do they ;D


Absolute fave shoes =]

Far East Movement - Like A G6 ft. The Cataracs, Dev

Asian Pride right there :D Don't tell me, this song doesn't make you get up and daaaance! Far East Movement consisting of an electro hop and electronic dance rap quartet from LA, Cali: Kev Nish (Chinese/Japanese American), Prohgress (Korean American), J-Splif (Korean American) and DJ Virman (Filipino American).
Source: wikipedia.org

Can I smell some Asian invasion here?! After the whole ABDC-hype and artists such as Bruno Mars and others...? We Asians got the swagger and the talent, y'all! Be prepared ;D

Breakbot - Baby I'm Yours (feat. Irfane) - HD

YOUR WISH IS MY COMMAND :D <3 <3 <3 <3

Headbangin' music

Arctic Monkeys haven't been around a lot lately, that's why I just wanted to refresh the Monkey hype =D Enjoy.

=] <3 dont forget to smile.
Ezzy

DJs got us falling in love agaiiiinn

23. October 2010 - "Jamming Night" - Live&Unplugged with AJ Rafael

Soooooo, the long awaited event finally happened last night. Vienna had the honour to have AJ Rafael in the city. The venue at 'Haus der Begegnung' in the 22nd district was crowded with fans, performers and music enthusiasts. Despite the delay the waiting definitely paid off.

The concert started with a couple of rad opening acts. It was a pity that the technical problems hampered the good performances but other than that, the performers did a great job. I was overwhelmed by how talented the youth in Vienna is and it does make me proud that the filipino community does encourage talents through events like these.

Overdrive opened the night with a self composed song. Unfortunately, the technical problems sort of distracted everyone from the actual perfomance. The lead singer Avram Carlo was pretty nervous but he and the band tried their best and made the best of the situation.

ROTZBUA the styler gang with Chesney Amada and his extraordinary voice that I adore, Aljohn Rosimo with his super fine and clear vocals and last but not least Francis Blanco the multitalented musician delighted us with their super good medley albeit the loss for word during the performance.

My lovely school friend Faith Blanco performed with her band and I can say that I was wow-ed by their performance. Not only were their musical qualities brilliant but they also rewrote modern songs such as 'Umbrella' by Rihanna and turned them into something spiritual. I guess, the band wanted to express their gratitude for their talent to the man above, which I thought was pretty impressive and something what you actually do not come across that often in daily life.

The evening had a lot of surprises in store, Brian & Friends for example. Starting out with only Brian Salonga, Bryan Macalindong and Francis Blanco on stage who let us listen to their beautiful voices, all of a sudden Jeffrey Gabunia, Rose May Alaba and Kim Abapo entered the stage with Jeff rapping Kanye's 'Good Life'. But it did not stop at that. Later Almar Rosimo joined and the ensemble was complete. The constellation of the singers plus the songs they chose were remarkable. Kudos, people!

The last singer was Kievin Boongaling who was accompanied by Pheng Soho. They sang a very impressive duett and I was most affected when they sang 'Unthinkable' by Alicia Keys ft. Drake. That growing part in vocals is something hard to hit BUT they perfectly hit all the tunes! KUDOS for that. Kievin is currently attending the German 'American Idol' in Germany and for that we wish him the best of luck.

The DANCEPERFORMANCES yet again were off the hook. Starting out with Musix and their gender mainstreaming, young and enthusiastical line up, followed by the outstanding Urban Movement who again made everyone's jaw drop with their creative moves and accurate although not yet that synchronic presentation. I guess the craziest audience hype started when the dancegroup P-Noise stormed the stage who at present have grown in memeber numbers. From the original five they went to a total of nine dancers which was pretty surprising at first but went out really well. You can tell from the screaming in the audience that they really do melt girls' hearts.

But before AJ could finally start his concert there was another surprise act that everyone literally surprised. The dancegroup who had no name did knock everyone's socks off. And I was so blind to see since one of the dancers was sitting next to me half of the night. I was so proud of the youngsters and they really danced very well. They just came out of the blue and the surprise was fantastic.


Picture: John Kennet B. Panti (c)

After the opening acts, the audience welcomed THE AJ RAFAEL with a rage of exuberance. With a beautiful Austrian 'Bösendorfer' grand piano, AJ started his concert by singing 'Heart of Worship' which emotionally caught everyone's attention. His musical skills are amazing and begrudging. This artist is down to earth as any person can be and I respect him for that, for the fame not getting into him and staying humble. The audience went crazy singing along with him to the songs he wrote. During his performance he encouraged everyone to stand up and to come to the front. It was self-evident that everyone rushed to the front to be near to him. That was when the hype reached its peak. The whole audience sang along as long as they could and AJ entertained them perfectly well. So when the last song was up of course the audience still could not get enough so AJ ended up singing an encore of his song 'I just want you'.

After the concert people had the chance to stay for a meet and greet whilst before that he had his signing session. Pictures were made and autographs were being signed and AJ infected everyone with his energy. As for that, I was lucky to have gotten a chance to interview him after the very long day.

LMR: Where do you get your inspiration from?
AJ: It depends, mostly on real situations. Musical inspiration comes from just from everybody who jams with me and stuff. Also from hearing something new for example from Bruno Mars. It always inspires me to write something better than the last thing I wrote.

LMR: When did you start playing?
AJ: I started playing the piano when I was five and had lessons for two years, so from five to seven and then I started playing the guitar when I was fifteen. When I was ten I didn't want to play classical piano anymore.

LMR; Who are your Idols?
AJ: Concerning the writing its Jason Mraz, John Mayer, James Morrison. Otherwise I listened to Boys to Men a lot and also My American Heart who are friends of mine inspire me a lot. And of course Michael Jackson.

LMR: Can you speak tagalog?
AJ: I speak broken tagalog but I understand everything as my whole family speaks to me in tagalog. And I am actually glad that I know what people are saying about me when they speak tagalog but it is hard to bring out the words.

LMR: Biggest petpeeve.
AJ: When people do not show up when they are supposed to and not even trying to call you beforehand to let you know.

LMR: If you could have dinner with 5 either alive or dead people who would they be?
AJ: My Dad, my Godfather, my Mom and my two sisters.

LMR: Where do you see yourself in 10 years?
AJ: Still touring I hope, as most musicians end touring at the age of 30. Hopefully have four albums out by then, that'll be great! And I hope that I can extend my musician life.


Résumé: I can say from my part that it was such an honour to get to meet him. He is such a talented and grounded artist and the world can do with more artists like him. I appreciate him for his musical skills as well as his charity who with his organisation 'Music Speaks' tries to increase the awareness of Autism. Apart from that he is a really outgoing and open guy and super friendly and fun :] AND no, AJ, you don't have to thank me for being interested in your life.


TG's ft. AJ <3 (Photo: John Kennet B. Panti (c) )


=] <3 dont forget to smile.
Ezzy


PS. SUPER HUGE KUDOS FOR CLINTON WAGAS who organised and made this memorable event happen :D

Inspiration of the Month - Carey Mulligan

Source:http://images.rdujour.com/wp-content/uploads/2010/01/qo9t0h5ui1vi.jpg

I absolutely A D O R E her. She's super talented and she's super sweet PLUS she has sense of fashion =] potential Idol? DUH!

Was geeeeht Wien? Warum so stylish?

YES! It is final. A FOREVER21 is opening in Vienna's streets soon. No, the magazine did not lie and so I can be sure of my assumptions now :D I bet it is going to be a cult store, which is rather bumming because loads of people might have the shirt as you again, but well... you cannot avoid that, can you.

I'm so excited that it is a flagshipstore, meaning 1000m² of trendy, fashionable but also affordable clothes. Eep - HEAVEN! The store is said to be opening some time in autumn, probably around November, December I guess. Can't wait :DD

=] <3 dont forget to smile.
Ezzy

The Issue with Thank yous and Sorrys

Is it just me or has saying sorry become the hardest thing to say?
I can say from my part that it is terribly hard for me to say 'sorry' to someone I appreciate and love. It is not because of my stubborness but more because I'm embarrassed of my wrong-doing. I am so used to having to do the right thing all the time that is why I cannot bear doing something wrong and giving in. Yeah, the pride does get a little scratch from embarrassing situations.

On the contrary, saying Thank You is something I really like saying. It shows appreciation and gratitude towards other people. I cannot say thank you enough to the people who stick to me. And of course, being grateful to the man above is something important to me too. Still, sometimes people do take things for granted. And I can say that I am part of that majority in the population. When people hand you things in life that are as a matter of course for them and you tell yourself it should be the same case for you then it is pretty easy falling into the same pot of unthankful people. The temptation is big, especially when material things are involved. You get the impression that you'll get this gadget and that gadget anyways so you do not have to try to accomplish anything at all. Going back to that attitude and working hard for something I want to have is something really hard for me at the moment, BUT I am working on it.

Thought I'd kinda disuss this. Hope it makes you think about it.

=] <3 dont forget to smile
Ezzy

Yikes. We so cool, it hurts :P

"WE THE COOLEST, BECAUSE WE PICKED UP LITTLE THINGS FROM EACH OTHER, RANDOM PHRASES, NICKNAMES AND STUPID HABITS. YOU HAVE TO ADMIT, WE CHANGED EACH OTHER."

Motherlove and her (harsh) pieces of wisdom =]

This external family issues just won't settle down which make my mum kinda upset. I was sitting at the big dining table and was having lunch when she suddenly rummaged through the advertisements and magazines on the table and started ranting about how people could be so stupid in love. She started being really sarcastic for a change and it made me laugh so hard, out of confusion and out of fascination how humourous my mum can actually be. Mum always has a harsh way of making fun of slightly illogical people. Well, well... she must've given me that trait :P

Anyways, she was ranting about how I should never cry over a boy. She also made it clear that I should never come home, moaning to her about a guy who left me and fell out of love. She's super harsh but believe me, she's not emotionless. So, I was sitting there and couldnt stop laughing. The best thing was that she said: "Yeah, if that guy doesnt love you anymore dont cry over him - look for a new one!"

The best thing by far was then, that she started looking at my 11-year old brother and started texting him about the same thing: "If a girl doesnt love you, don't cry because of her."

Poor guy, I thought and he didnt even understand why she was telling him all this as he later asked me what she was talking about.

But I must say she does have a point in this. I can say that when it comes to guys you shouldnt be dependent on them. You have to have your own brains and stop thinking that everything evolves on him. That's the worst thing you can do. What if he won't be there anymore? Your whole world falls apart? You think you can't live anymore and you'd rather die because he's not into/with you anymore? That's total BS. You'll get over it some day and look at it as an enrichment to your experience. I guess, you're less affected by such loss if you've continued doing your thing. Just don't make the guy you love (esp. if he's not The One, you want to marry) be the centre of the universe as there are other more important things in your life that need being cared of.

So, what my Mum's piece of wisdom was, is this to consider your guy as someone who's worth investing your time:

* Does he believe in God?
* Does he love you for who you truly are? Does he love you despite your faults?
* Is he/she ready to change so that your relationship can develope into something more serious?

If these pretty essential points do not correspond to your guy, then maybe think your relationship over. Still, I'm not the one to tell what to do or not to do. I'm just sharing my mum's wisdom.

Oh and Mum?
You're the harshest, most dominant, coolest and best Mother =]
Mum, you're the best!

You are average? I LIKE YOU.

So this is my first blog in a long time and I hope that I can update it once in a while with topics that lie really close to my heart. Blogging hast become such an important impact in the Media and Communication area that I was thinking of improving my writing online and making use of it. Annyyway, that was the introduction to the beginning of my blog-writing-career.

I have actually just read an article from the 'Kronen Zeitung'-magazine. It is not the best magazine there is, but sometimes they do have quite interesting articles. Its title was (translated) "Bravery for the Mediocrity".

It has been a topic my mind has been exposed with lately. I thought I had to write about it after reading Dickens 'Hard Times' and now reading this article. Finding oneself in a completely wrong school and observing how the students act has become part of my daily life now for the past five years. It is true that people strive for perfection. That nothing can be held against them when they are perfect. People want to be better than others, want the success and the prestige with it but they forget one thing - happiness. Do people think they are happy when they work 24/7 just to be on top? Are people happy with themselves when people envy them although their lives are falling into pieces? Why does society encourage perfection and avoid mediocrity? We live in a profitorientated world, no doubt, but the more people I see, striving for this goal, the less I see a personality shining through them. In Dicken's book, students were drilled to learn facts and figures and only facts and figures. They were not allowed to have feelings, emotions or dreams because they wouldn't profit from it in future.
According to the article, between 1997 and 2004 depression and anxiety has been constantly growing and people between the age of 15 and 34 years have been affected. Society expects too much of people nowadays. Only looking at the Hollywood stars who look plastically flawless is a very good example. But even people who lead a less privileged life, like me, have hard times fitting into todays society. People who are only average are said to be invisible because they do not stand out. I do not stand out in my class due to my perfomance in school and neither do I stand out because I am super pretty because I would rather stand out to be one person who tries to stop this seriousness in life. I would rather stand out as a person who spreads happiness and smiles. For me, life is too short to be serious.
I say, dream and live. Have feelings, have emotions and be who you are because that is the only thing that counts in life. What would prestige and money bring you in life? Not much because if you haven't lived your life to the fullest extent what is there to live then?
Be passionate people, is what I can say. If there is nothing you are overly enthusiastic about although you are perfect in every other sense then what is there to admire?

Being average is the best thing that can happen to you because once you are happy, every other person sees that and is automatically infected and attracted by if. Being 'only' average is nothing to be sad about. If you want to be perfect, then rather strive for excellence than perfection. Excellence is able to achieved but perfection is not because the only person who truly is perfect is of course GOD.

Keeping it short and sweet, be happy with who you are even if you are only average. People do stand out in their own way and embrace that because you have not been sent on Earth to be nothing special. Mediocrity FTW!

=] <3

Ezzy