A special someone told me

... it can only get better from here.

It is true since the results I have gotten this week have been more than surprising. Positive in business studies, which was rather close to failure BUT still... it's positive which kind of puts my motivation up again. Apart from that, I surprisingly managed to write the best English exam - the only one with a B. I was super stoked about the unexpected turn. All I have to do now is keep up with it and FOCUS, FOCUS, FOCUS.

I can't wait for summer. Be here already!

=] <3 don't forget to smile
Ezzy

Blog whining

Life is good, only school really, really, really sucks.

I woke up today, feeling pretty bad. On one hand, I've been having this cold since yesterday and on the other hand I'm pissing my pants because of Monday. Monday is so doomed and I already know now. Next week I'm getting all my exams back and they're most probably all negative. I have no idea what the heck's wrong with me. I could've done so much better, but if I tell myself this all my thoughts would revolve around the fact that I actually didn't want to do it better, that I'd only strive to get the studying over and done with instead of actually excelling my exam. I'm such a spoilt little kid and I actually don't deserve anything at the moment. I don't deserve going out on the weekends, I should rather stay home and do school-stuff till 1am. But then the tempation in me says that I could do with a little distraction. It's not like I have so much to do next week - see, there you go! Those are my thoughts. I'm not taking things serious enough and it's like I don't care that I don't. I would always find an excuse for my actions and that's so bad. I'm so scared for the next week. I found myself sitting on my bed today, just staring into the complete blankness absorbed in thoughts. How am I gonna avoid exams at the end of the semester in the 3 major subjects? I'm lost. I don't want to study more than I should and I guess that's the problem.

=] <3 dont forget to smile, hm?
Ezzy

In viennese you'd say "ois, is oasch!"

...meaning, 'everything is fucked'.
I'm having a really hard time in school lately and it kinda sucks because it doesn't seem to get better. Other than that I'm fed up with the teachers mentally eliminating students off their 'potential graduate' list. I'm prolly not on that list in any of the subjects. I just wish that everything would be like two years ago. Where focus, ambition and determination was 100% provided that there just couldn't be the alternative to fail. Now that I am truyl aware and even consider that repeaing would always be the Plan B, it's like, it would always help me not to totally break down. My mom has always been saying that as long as you are healthy, everything is alright. I do believe her but cman, mum, you'd be devastated if I wouldn't be able to graduate at all. It's all in my nature I guess, the fighting. I was born as a fighter and if I look at the situation now, I survived an asthma attac when I was 3 months old or something, then I might as well surivive school which is living hell. It'd be super super depressing having to repeat the graduation year again, but then again... you've come this far and not going to get through it, would be the most stupidest thing EVER! I mean, I'd hate being in that school a year longer, but then again, you'd be prepared for everything already. Now it's like confusion all over the place. Fears are getting worse every month and that kind of dims the Christmasfeeling. After the Christmas holidays that's when the graduates know, that the first semester will soon be over and the second will begin as well as the A-levels preparations. URGH! Either way, I'll have to wait for the results and see from there. Apart from that, I won't forget to smile =] it's all in God's hands what will happen to me in future. Probably he's testing me again since I was born as a fighter and not a lover ;D




=] <3 don't forget to smile.
Ezzy

Remember this:

My mum always tells me that all the good, successful and best people are only humans too and have feelings. They might look perfect from the outside and come across like that but on the other hand they have problems too and their lives are far from perfect. Sometimes being average is just the best thing to be because you have average problems and average difficulties, or not?

Here's something that might make me remember things easier:

-people who criticize a lot, are insecure

-people who complain a lot, seldom makes actions

-people who insult a lot, are commonly ugly

-people who flirt a lot, lack love and attention

-people who gossip a lot, never had true friends

On the other hand

-people who are successful are usually those who were once weak & poor

-people who achieve a lot, got many inspiration

-people who stick to one lover, experience true love

-and the people who are happy, are always kind to others

Behind every personality lies a positive/negative experience.

=] <3 dont forget to smile.
Ezzy


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I cant think of anybody else, who I hate to miss, as much as hate missing youuuuuuu

Hey Monday - 6 Months

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Ezzy

These Saturdaysss

Ay ay ayyyy... another Saturday at home, studying. Having a break now. It's gonna be a looooooong night, but I'm pulling it through :]
I'm still irritated though. I'm irritated that I'm so super impatient, especially now that this upcoming week is going to be totally awesome. I just have to hold on till Wednesday 10.20am! Until then, I have to go through blood, sweat and tears in order to excell my exam on Monday and my test on Wednesday. Apart from that I can't forget about that German exam on Friday, which is rather hmmm... not irrelevant but more pushed into the background since it's "only" German. Anyways, I can't wait for next weekend. Time to let loose and have fuuuuuun. Major fun with all my friends and lots of partying :P Super happy for my friend Jeffrey who finally turned 18 this weekend. Still rather bummed that I couldn't go to his party, though :/ anyways, I'm stocked that SCLUB is finally of age :D Kim's turning 18 this week as well and I so can't wait. It's going to be great. I can still remember when we were young, everything super chilled and everything ran smoothly. Now everyone seems to be really busy, like really really busy. I really can't wait for this school year to be over. HELLO to University and HELLO to Freedom :D Majorly, majorly psyched and I'm counting the weeks :D

Now I've totally lost track about what I actually wanted to write, but anyways... gotta go back and be a great student.



=] <3 dont forget to smile.
Ezzy

Weekend Recap

Big, big, big siiiiiiigggghhh. Last week was pretty tough, but I got through it. French, english and history test all within two days :O and a german presentation at the end of the week. Kinda bummed about that presentation tho... it was hella boring and I could've done it way better, but well... a 'C' is a 'C'!

Last friday was pretty busy! I ended school around 12pm and went to meet my dearest Sio in the City to grab some super lunch at McDonald's and to get some homework done. We coincidentally bumped into Anne, who was out and about in the City as well :) Later she joined us with a few other people in McDonald's. Reminds me of the phonecall Sio and I had about these people who worked in a certain store! It was hilarious guessing the code names she gave people. The best was 'he thinks he's a producer' HAHAHA! Super fun! The reason why we all met up was because we had a GA later that afternoon. Before that the others had some Bubbletea at Tealicioius. I've tried it one and I was quite disappointed because everyone loves it, only my weird tongue doesn't.
The GA was successful and I thank God for bringing each and everyone there. We were somewhat 40 people in a small room and I was just so happy that we're growinig each year. I feel so blessed to be part of all this because it's the place where I feel safe and secure. I found my bestes friends there and I can't be any happier.
After the GA Anne, Kim and I rushed home to get ready for our dear Lucille's BDAY bash which she had with Jahn and Pam. I was super tired when I got home and trying to find an outfit for the night was soooo annoying. I eventually found something cosy and neat since I only stayed for the Bar-party. Lots of people were there and it was fun :) Sio had the time of her life doing the Karaoke bit :P Nah, it was all good, all good :] We both had to leave earlier because I had to study and she had work the next day so we took advantage of the super great 24h public transport provided by our city :D From what I've heard, Lucille had a blast and I'm happy for that because it's obviously what she deserves when turning eighteen =] Love you, Princess :D

Saturday was a drag. I started the day watching all of my tv-shows. From 'My life as Liz' to 'How I Met Your Mother' even though I had lots to study! But it turned out well, I guess...

Sunday was pretty nice. I went to church with my family and later met up with my TG's :) We went to have lunch at that great italian restaurant Vapiano which is like the greatest invention ever. There you won't get waited, you have to get your food yourself by having this card which scans your order. With that you go to the cashier and they scan the card again and you pay. Food was super good and we were hella full after the lunch. What do I not do for my girls? I was actually going to go home to continue studying but I thought, I do not get to see them that often especially lately and that was why I followed them to the mass where the YFL-choir was singing. Yes, I was a good Christian that day. Went to the mass twice :P But I learnt a lot and that is what matters. After the mass we hoped to get some quality time because we had to update each other but unfortunately we only had about 15 min. of alone time before the YFL-Babies and the others joined us. It was fun though, especially the humour of some people was quite amusing.

Now, I'm writing this blog, even though I should study. This kinda sucks, this studying but that's what I have to put up for, for the next couple of months. I can't wait for the Summer. Sooooo, can't wait for my life to really begin :D Moreover, after I put all this behind me, I know I'm even happier than I'm now.



OHHHH YEEEEEEEESS!! The best COOKIES EVERRRRRR!


Oh sorry for the 478ml-of-pure-American-originated-but-produced-in-the-Netherlands-Greentea-blissfulness! LOVE LOVE LOVE


Caesar Salad FTW!


YUMMY YUMMY FOODDD :)

=] <3 dont forget to smile.
Ezzy

wanna hang?

I've just come across this cool, sweet music of Robyn. The song's called 'Hang with me'. Hope you like it.




Will you tell me once again
how we're gonna be just friends?
If you're for real and not pretend
then I guess you can hang with me

When my patience's wearing thin
When I'm ready to give in
Will you pick me up again?
Then I guess you can hang with me

And if you do me right
I'm gonna do right by you
And if you keep it tight
I'm gonna confide in you
I know what's on your mind
there will be time for that too
if you hang with me
hang with me

Just don't fall
recklessly, headlessly in love with me
Cause its gonna be
All heartbreak
blissfully painful and insanity
if we agree

Oh you can hang with me

When you see me drift astray
outta touch and outta place
will you tell me to my face?
then I guess you can hang with me

And if you do me right
I'm gonna do right by you
And if you keep it tight
I'm gonna confide in you
I know what's on your mind
there will be time for that too
if you hang with me
hang with me

=] <3 dont forget to smile.
Ezzy

Yay or nay?!

Achhh, good ol' McFLY. I can't believe I used to be so obsessed with them. I mean their music really appealed to me two years ago but I guess I've grown out of the addiction - thankfully. Still, I'll always have a thing for Danny Jones and I must say, these guys look even better the older they get :D My favourite album of their's is WONDERLAND (duh!). It is rather dark but the music is really good. I can only recommend it. I hope they stay as popular as before in the UK since I've given up on the dream that they'll ever visit Austria. I like this live version of the song 'Shine A Light' where Taio Cruz is featured. The song sounds wayyy better than the studio version and what I also like is the Paul O'Grady show and his lovely accent. Yes, I'm a sucker for the British accent =]
Enjoy!



=] <3 dont forget to smile.
Ezzy

Got a secret, can you keep it?

Ahhhhh, how I miss the Pretty Little Liars show! Sadly, it doesnt air before January :( The girls and I are totally in love with the show and since we're the weird bunch we always try to identify ourselves with the characters. Funnily enough, we unintendently took a picutre of us girls in the same position as the PLT characters :) meant to be much?!

Slappin da base xD

Pure Enjoyment: My Life As Liz

THE CUTEST <3


Liz herself.

Proudly presents...

VALERIE-ANN QUERNER, my cousin who I'm super proud of of walking down that catwalk and making everyone speechless.
On Halloween, at Vienna's Volksgarten Nathalie de Wilde was able to present her graduation-project as a midnight-special. Bummer I wasn't there to support her and my cousin BUT I know she did great. PLUS I'm happy for Nathalie De Wilde, who's new collection just looks amazing AGAIN, that she got the opportunity to show off her fashion. She's done a great job on my birthday and I know that she will get far with her fashion.
More about Nathalie's fashion you can find here.
Look at the pictures and make an opinion for yourself.


My Zuckerl <3







=] <3 dont forget to smile.
Ezzy

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Whispers, "hello. i miss you quite terribly."

Here in your arms by Hello Goodbye

And for the laughs =]