Expect the unexpected

So, I have been slacking the whole day although I wanted to get some work done but other things are occupying my mind, unfortunately. Apart from that I think I haven't had enough of sleep since I've spent most of the afternoon in my bed sleeping. I guess my rythm of sleeping is all mixed up now. Shame.

But let's leave that there and go on to the next and actually more important things to talk about. The last time I was sitting in the tram on the way home, I've kind of got to thinking about my life at the moment and the people who are in it and it sort of always puts a huge smile on my face. The reason for that is, that I would have never thought that these people would mean so much to me. I would have never thought that I would ever got a chance to meet them or ever get to talk to them. In my childhood my parents dragged me to these meetings where all other children of their aquaintances were. I used to get along with these children pretty well but you know, as you grow older you get even more shyer to even talk to them although you were pretty much childhood friend and you basically just grow apart. These things always happened to me. While the other kids formed some kind of clique I never really belonged anywhere and they weren't even interested in me being in one of their groups. Well, let's say I had a hard time with friends ever since day one in elementary school but that's not the point I want to make here.
So, over the past years you just kind of indirectly noticed what kind of groups formed and you just watch them how bonded they are and you basically wished you were part of all this.
Then there's this person who kind of never left your side. Regardless how close you were, that person was always on your side no matter what and from day one you knew you could always count on her.
It really is amazing what life can bring you and what God's plans are for you.
There are so many people right now, I can count on, no matter what, I know I have their back.
There are so many people who want me to be happy and are willing to do everything for that.

I just truly feel blessed and lucky to be in this sort of chapter in my life where I don't need to worry about people trying to stab me in the back or people betraying me for whatever reason. I'm thankful for every person in my life.

=] <3 don't forget to smile.
Ezzy

Ich bin letztens in der Straßenbahn gesessen und musste lächeln. Einfach der Gedanke daran, dass es wichtige Leute in meinem Leben gibt, von denen ich mir nie denken konnte, dass sie jemals so wichtig für mich sein werden. Dies ist jetzt nichts kitschiges oder dergleichen und ich will auch nicht in die Netlog-shoutout Richtung gehen, wenn ihr wisst was ich meine ("Knuuccaaaa meine BESTEE"). Es ist eigentlich nur die Tatsache, dass das Leben wirklich unberechenbar ist. Man kennt viele Leute vom Sehen und man bekommt von Erzählungen ein Paar Dinge von ihrem Leben mit, aber man fühlt sich nie wirklich daran beteiligt oder man weiß, dass man nie irgendetwas mit ihnen zu tun haben werden. Verlasst euch nicht darauf, da genau das Gegenteil passieren kann. Mir ging es zumindest so.

Ich sehe mich in meinem Freundeskreis um und kann mich nie glücklicher schätzen.

Erstens, hätte ich mir nie gedacht einmal eine eigene und richtige Clique zu haben.

Zweitens, hätte ich mir nie gedacht, dass ich jemals mit diesen Leuten in dieser Clique viel zu tun hätte.

Drittens, hätte ich mir nie im Leben gedacht, dass manch anderer Leute in meinem Leben einen wichtigen Platz einnehmen würden.

Skurril, würde ich meinen. Jedenfalls, ich bin eigentlich total froh, dass es soweit gekommen ist. Ich kann mich nicht beklagen und werde es nicht. Man weiß, Freunde kommen und gehen, aber so wie es momentan läuft, kann ich mir die Zukunft miteinander schon sehen.