THE BIRTHDAY!

 Geez, 19 years old and totally exhausted I lying on the couch :) however I had a really, really nice day. Last night I was very much entertained by my loved ones since the counted down the hours with me. Today at school I had to write a little revision first thing but it was alright... pretty chilled. Talked to my neighbour now and then and compared xD That's what you do if you have a laid back teacher! My class was so sweet. One of my classmates baked me a really good cake. Thanks Kati again, super delish cake ;) School wasn't all that much of a drag. I got away before it got too boring. After school I went to church and thanked God for all my blessings! I'm so grateful for everything he has given me and I appreciate every ups and every downs. Right after church I met up with my wonderful and bestest loser =] My girl looking hawt today! I was glad that the weather wasn't that bad today. It was sunny but then again also really windy but it was fine. My bestest took me out for lunch at that awesome restaurant 'Freiraum'. Thanks again, Sio, for the treat! You're the best! The food was yum, ofc. After chilling, talking and eating we went to see our lovely Lisabel just to pick up something from her. Still, it was great seeing her since I wouldn't have had the chance. Roaming around Mariahilferstraße, Venice and I ´simultaneously also raided the stores a little bit. Can't wait to go and shop =] We also got the chance to talk to our dear Suga, who's currently out of the country. Darn, I miss that girl and can't wait to see her next week again!  My day ended with a GA with a very inspirational talk and of course the day ended with a family dinner. Dad's made an effort making sushi and pancit =] Loved it of course! Thanks again to everyone who greeted me. I'm sorry I can't reply on FB, since I am fasting, but I do appreciate all your greets :D :D :D I'll get back to you on Sunday ;) Oh yeah, do keep spamming Venice with the greets! She loves it! HAHA xD Kidding, Bruno Mars!

YUMMY FOOD =] Thanks loser <3

THE BESTEST LOSER EVER <3

The empty room 

We so dorky, it hurts! Thanks for the tons of laughs, Bruno Mars =)

All smiles much? (even though we're loners)

Yeah, the Losers, losing around :P

Wonder why there's a table in the middle of the room? Yeah, that woman asked herself the same thing!

=] <3 don't forget to smile.
Ezzy

Wildfox Couture's '90s Sweet Valley High-Inspired Lookbook

I absolutely adore Wildfox Fashion as well as their Lookbooks! Check out some pictures of their new 90s inspired Lookbook :) Feel that Summer yet?! :D

=] <3 don't forget to smile.
Ezzy

Picture Source: http://www.refinery29.com/wildfox-couture-s-90s-poolside-pizza-party-sweet-summer-lookbook

Idol of the Month: Adele

I have just realised that I have never seen an interview with Adele. Since it's her month on my blog, I want to share this great interview and also description of her songs in her new Album '21'.

It's really good and she's such a great person. I love her charm. Them Brits ;D

=] <3 don't forget to smile.

Ezzy

Idol of the Month: Adele

That woman. A-M-A-Z-I-N-G. She had already blown me away with her first single 'Chasing Pavements' since it was the time where I had this particular crush on someone and line after line just fitted the situation I was in. Not only have her lyrics appealed to me but also her remarkable voice. She has become one of my favourite vocalists all time and I am curious about what the future will bring us from her.

Enjoy this amazing, emotional and beautiful perfomance by ADELE.

Check out my 'Idol of the Month' series here.

=] <3 don't forget to smile.

Ezzy

Do 'YOU' with all your heart =]

Phew, today I wrote my next-to-last exam and that's the subject which is quite tricky for me. I just hope that the grade sort of balances out my past not so good grades. But I have faith in the Lord and will be accepting anything he will give me.

My birthday is coming up in a few days :D I'm quite excited for that since I can finally relax and enjoy a weekend doing nothing! I'm looking forward to get-togethers with my family and my lovely friends. But most of all I look forward to kind of complete this school year whether I still have to do some oral exams or not.

Weekends have been quite hard for me recently. It's because when you're outside school you get to thinking a lot and get to have time for reflecting on things as well. That part isn't all that bad but when it comes to demotivation then it really is hard to get out of that hole again. I tried my best this weekend to be productive and I can pat myself on the back because I was willing to get up at 7am on Saturday as well as on Sunday. I hope I will carry that attitude throughout the next couple of weeks as well because the final exams are in a month already!

But looking at the months that passed, I can say it has been a struggle. It has been an attitude struggle and yes sure, I had to learn it the hard way but that's just how life is. Refering to the typography on the top, I have learned to say 'fuck you' and I really can say that that has helped me a lot. I didn't particularly say that to people, although it would have probably helped to shut some of the up, but the principle point is, that I started looking and started taking care of myself - putting myself in the centre of the light. The whole external influences have lead me to doubt myself, to constantly compare myself to others or even live up to people's expectations who weren't worth it anyways. Do you know the feeling when you know you shouldn't be doing things and you really want to change so hard but nothing ever goes right? That was how I felt most of the school year. I knew that all this lazying around didn't help me to get to where I wanted, but the most important point was, what did I want? Of course, it's self-evident that all my classmates and myself want the Matura, but back then it was hard for me to even think that I could make it, however, I was pretending that I could. When things don't come and you do not really want anything from your heart then it might be a struggle that you might even get it. It's the willingess and the passion behind it that leads you to succeed and where you want to be. Without wanting it or even believing in it, which is another major point, then it will be difficult to get to where you want to be. It has taken me a lot of courage to actually realise and accept that the self-doubt was the key factor that hindered me from everything and it was hard for me to find myself and my place in this world again. Realising that YOU is the best thing you can do helped me a lot. Now and then it just has to be 'Fuck you world. Fuck you people. Fuck you school' because as long as you believe in yourself and you believe that the great man up there is guiding you through everying and also believing that this is exactly where you should be, let-downs and disappointments shouldn't fail you to succeed in everything else.
Praying has also helped me a lot and knowing that other people have faith in me has also helped me very much. Hanging in there, not giving up and just carrying on despite the struggles will definitely benefit you and increase your reward.

Just believe, pray and hope. Three things that will get you through whatever hardship you're going through.

=] <3 don't forget to smile.
Ezzy