I want that extra cheese to my w(h)ine

Okay, the negative effects of lack of sleep have kicked in. Straight after school I went to have a sit-in at Coffeeday in the City. I managed to sort of get one little chapter summarization done and I am still not near of getting finished. While writing the summary in that coffee house I was pretty much distracted by all these people I was surrounded by. I had a little table for two right in front of the window and next to me were Italians, well that's what I thought. I came to the conlusion that they were tour-guides and it was rather interesting. Don't think of me being a stalker but I was rather bored and overhearing people's conversations seemed to be more interesting than summarizing business studies. So, these two people next to me had an interesting conversation about literature. Too bad they didn't touch the topic I should study for German, but still, I was quite fascinated about their conversation. Tour guides are generally pretty interesting to me. They know a lot about history and all sorts of things that would interest me as well. They even complained about the bookstores in Italy :P One of them said that Venice offers a wide range of books whereas Padova doesn't since it is also a very small city. Haha, I feel like a right stalker now. No hate though. Since I am currently studying German literature I just kind of feel lucky to get this opportunity, although I do not always listen during the lessons but in the long-term it really does educate you. I mean, would you ever, like ever, read anything from Grillpartzer, Schiller, Goethe or Hauptmann voluntarily? Or have you ever heard of them before? To be honest, I have never heard of a Grillpartzer and a Hauptmann before although they are one of the most influential authors in the German Literature. They would be the equivalent to Dickens, Austen, Poe etc. Oh and not to forget Stefan Zweig!

Furthermore, I do not get the feeling that many people, especially young adults, read that much anymore. Am I wrong with that impression? Because, if I am, please do correct me. I think reading is very important. It does not only improve your language skills but it also trains your brain and you also gain a lot of new insights on life. I rather miss reading a lot that's why I can't wait for mid-june where I can let go of everything and finally do things that I really do enjoy. Sundays in bed with a good book just sounds like a dream to me at the moment. But it's a dream that I'm getting close to fulfill.

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Showing some PARAMORE-LOVE! They are THE BEST!

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Ray Ban shades, check; denim jacket, check; sunshine, check

I can gradually smell spring time with this beautiful weather :) Today I wrote the last test for this week and I am super glad. I thought this week would be terrible but with a little faith and a little bit of luck, it turned out fine. I can't believe that after next week, the school year is basically over for us seniors. The only thing we would have to focus then, would be studying for the final exams in May, but until then we still have a bit of time ;D

Since I studied last night, I only managed to get 4 1/2h of sleep but to my surprise I didn't feel exhausted or totally destroyed in the morning. Guess why? I drank half a can of Red Bull at midnight, so to stay awake for another couple of hours. So, I can conclude, that this energy drinks do have a major effect on me. That didn't use to be the case before. Surprise, surprise.

After school and also during school time I decided to go to tealicious yet again, to have a little celebration for the end of the stressful week. Of course, I didn't want to go on my own, so, I took my little sister and my little brother with me. It quite amazes me of how fast they are growing up. It kinda is scary as well, I must admit, especially when your little siblings turn into teens. That's when all the older sister overprotectiveness starts.

When you have younger siblings, you start to kind of understand your parents and their worries and stuff. That is why I find it hard making decisions for the little ones. Anyways, I was glad getting to spend some quality time with them. I love you, sis & litttle monster.

The little monster all smiles & my pretty little sis.

The little monster & my humble self

Sup bro? Seen a pretty lady?

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Ezzy

The Daily Love: How to get through and make the best of frustration

Studying is getting me down today, however, i am doing the best I can even though it might not be enough BUT at least I can say that I've tried =)

There are SUPER frustrating times on The Path. Instead of fighting against frustrating times with more frustration, anger and resentment, take a higher road today.

Remember, a delay is not a denial. The Uni-verse’s timing is always perfect and if something isn’t quite manifesting yet, there is a reason. So, today, instead of choosing to be angry, hurt or just plain ole pissed off, take a BIIIIG DEEP BREATH and know that everything is happening in perfect time. It might piss you off to know that it’s not happening in YOUR time, but it is happening in the perfect time.

Do what you can do that’s within your power today and let go of the rest. There’s no use letting the things you can’t control dictate your level of happiness.

So, instead of choosing frustration because you think you won’t be provided for or taken care of, choose to see the circumstance through the eyes of faith, and then relax, let it go and enjoy the rest of your day doing what you can.

We are not all powerful beings, though sometimes our ego would like us to think we are. There is also a tremendous gift in not always getting what you want. There are gentle and compassionate Hands that are guiding your life.

So instead of fighting against what you cannot control today, let go and choose to see the delay as a miracle in disguise sent by One who loves you, who has your best interest in mind and Who is setting up an even greater outcome than you can now imagine. 

Love,

Mastin 

Source: http://thedailylove.com/how-to-get-through-and-make-the-best-of-frustration/

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Ezzy

Sunday, happy Sunday

It's the 3rd Sunday in the lent season and well, we have come halfway already! Be proud of yourself! This lent is something really special to me, I realised. It's the first proper fasting I'm doing and I can say that I do feel good. It's just a mind matter to stick to the deal and even though it is quite hard, not reaching for the rice or going on FB and other things, I am already proud of myself that I really do pull through =) More importantly why this season is important to me, is that I learn a lot. I learn a lot to trust God and myself more. Without trusting and believing in Him, there's no chance that I can trust myself and believe in myself. That's what I've learnt. Not only the girls but also I have realised that the fasting has bonded us more stronger now. Of course, the issues we're facing at the moment have resemblance but then again, I am happy that we go through the same things. There's more understanding, there's more compassion and more togetherness. Although we are at different levels in life, it is still really nice to know that at some point in life, you and your best friends find yourselves at the same spot. They have my back and I know that I have theirs, whatever might happen and that's what I'm so grateful for. Now it's TGs minus one for a while. I already miss the missing lady but I look forward to seeing her again in three weeks.

Just before I end this blog, I would just like to share about what helped me through the hard times the past few weeks. I learnt it the hard way, with lots of tears, lots of self-doubt and of course the feeling of being a loser. I do not let myself think that anymore because I am a winner. I won because I didn't give up and always tried my best. I won because I don't doubt on Him. Finally, I won because I appreciate all the blessings he has given me.
So I've been listening to a lot of Hillsong music and I can tell you, they helped a bunches. It helped me through times of fear and panic. They make me feel strong and I am glad that there's the possibility to always get to listen to them. Here are a few of my favourites:

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I CAN'T THINK OF ANYBODY ELSE, WHO I HATE TO MISS, AS MUCH I HATE MISSING YOU

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Typography Party: Fashion

Basically everything that caught my eye :) Enjoy!

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Ezzy

Idol of the Month: Jessie J

I am quite late with this post, but I have decided to put JESSIE J. into my list of Idols.
That power woman from England has got me hooked on her catchy song 'Price Tag'. She's managed to storm the world with her unique appearance and of course her incredible voice. Ever listened to her live performances? That woman CAN SING! Not only can she sing but she can also write. Who would've guessed that she wrote Miley Cyrus' song Party in the USA?
Anyways, here are some song, that I deffo like:

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Ezzy

YAY :)

Just got back from my matura presentation! How relieved I am. I never ever have to work on this project in my life again - it was long enough! After a two hour exam in a very important subject and the projec presentation, I am just really happy that both kind of worked out, well the other much better. The project presentation was a success and all the people who came liked it very much! Thanks again for all the people that came.

I am just so happy to put all this behind me. A very big chip fell off my shoulder today! It's just the beginning of the end though. Two more weeks with lots of stress but if I got through this week, I might as well managed the upcoming weeks :D Speaking of two weeks: it's my birthday sooon! Am I excited? Yeah, I am. Only a bit sad, that I only get to celebrate it a week afterwards but then again the week after my birthday is the day where I'm done with this school year! Super stoked about it.

Anyways, I might post pictures of the project presentation, but for now... toodles!

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Ezzy

Forever the BEST

I had the girls over last night. It was just a spontaneous decision since we chilled at tealicious which isn't that far away from my place. Incredible how bubbletea can make one's day - well, it always makes my day at least. Thursday and Friday I was over at my foreverbest-cousine just to get away from home to study. I've had the piece and quite I needed at her place and I love hanging out with her. She's the craziest person I've met so far and I know that this summer we've got a lot of catching up to do concerning partying!
Talking of summer. SUMMER 2011 is going to be legendary, y'all. Honest blog! The girls and I have made major plans for this summer and I can't wait for this to happen. Everything's still in the planning process but I guess with a probability of 60% it will work out. It has to work out. I'll probably do everything in my power for this to work out! I'm really stoked and I know the girls can't wait either, hm?? I'll pray hard for it.

So, this school year's coming to its endspurt. Another 4 weeks and I can announce myself as a non-student. Hard work will deffo pay off and I'm psyched about it!

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Ezzy

#counturblessings

Count your blessings every time you feel sad, mad or annoyed.

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10 Things Lovers should know

I am, in no way, admitting to dexterity and wisdom in relationships since I’ve had my fair share of retributions, jealousy over other girls and irrational outbursts. This list is based solely on what I think and according to what I observe in my present relationship and in others as well.

10. Take the bad and make it good. If it rains on a perfectly planned date, take off your stilettos and rubber shoes and get drenched. But if you’re too adamant to get too intimate with a harmless drizzles share an umbrella or a jacket and try avoiding puddles. If you’re out of money and out of luck in a once in a lifetime event, snuggle with your partner in a couch and go on movie marathons instead. Not only were you able to enjoy the supposedly ugly conditions, you were also able to weather together.


9. Be spontaneous. Show up at your special someone’s school/workplace without letting him/her know. Thrust a single-stemmed flower in front of him/her or treat him/her to dinner just because. There’s no need for a reason to surprise your loved one. Just don’t overdo it. Surprises tend to be routinary when done almost everyday. :)

8. When angry, sleep on it. Skip the cliche of never going to bed angry. It’s utterly and despicably false. As a female, I always had the innate urge to get things (i.e. issues) closed and packed up for a fresh start the next day. I want to cope with the whole problem today. Not tomorrow. Or the next day after that. But as I said, confronting problems at the exact same day when you’re stressed and raging with emotions always end up in a bigger fight and the anger ignited all the more. I should know.

7. Screw romance—a little. Whatever those paperback novels embedded in your mind aren’t always realistic. So let’s backtrack and stick to pragmatism. Never expect every single day with your special someone to be the same I-feel-butterflies-and-electricity-coursing-through-my-nerves-when-we-touch thing because it won’t. But don’t rule out romance. It’s vital but not as often. In my case, what I feel is security and happiness. On other days, when my beau is as sweet as my mom’s broken glass window dessert, I just feel like an eleven-year old swooning over her long-time crush. :)

6. Screw romance—a little. Part II. Although looking for that spark and intense combustion is inevitable (I hear ya ladies), the same feeling can be acquired when watching out for FUN in lieu of ROMANCE. Instead of fancy dinner dates and violins, have a water gun fight or a barbecue eating contest. Challenge each other in games you both adore (i.e. basketball, dota) and have pillow fights on the way. You’re not only keeping that “spark” alive, you’re also having fun without a dash of pretense at all.

5. Flair up those imperfections. Whether it’s my gap-tooth(which I hate) or my lisp(which I hate even more), my beau continues to adore me. Lesson? Whatever those flaws you think will discourage the apple of your eyes, try to act naturally confident with them. They may be imperfection in your eyes, but in your partner’s, they’re the quirky part of you s/he’ll never get over teasing you with. :) And we love a good tease don’t we?

4.Get your own social circle. Don’t let your world revolve around your loved one. It’s either you will scare her away because of your obsession (was that her hair under your pillow?) or because you choke him with your possessiveness (I need space! I need space! I need—-Arrrrrghhh!). The downward spiral will hit you so fast, you’ll only have time to bid adieu. Instead, bond with your friends (that s/he knows and trusts) without your special someone.

3. Do new things together. Go to dance classes or painting lessons. Learn how to cook or sew. Go skydiving or bungee jumping. Donate your time to charities or spend the afternoon cleaning some aged neighbor’s backyard. The point is, do it with your partner. The experience will not only thrill you, you can also spend the time getting to know each other. :)

2. Laugh like tomorrow is Armageddon. Nothing cures a sour day than a heavy bunch of laughter dipped with the glaze of humor and smiles. And nothing douses lovers’ quarrel than a good joke to stir up laughter. Laughing trips make the relationship stronger and more enjoyable. :)

1. Communicate. A lot. Whether you’re on a long-distance relationship or you’re close to each other (just like myself), the key is to communicate a lot. And don’t talk about the superficial stuff (i.e.our neighbor’s sister’s niece, your cousin’s mistress’ secretary)—although you can use some of them to determine a person’s personality and attitude—unless it directly affects the both of you. Talk about yourselves. Your dreams. Ambitions. Future goals. Motto. Your thoughts on love and relationships. If you can’t talk about these stuff now, then how can you talk about the more important issues in the future??

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Ezzy

When one suffers from writer's block!

Do you know this situation when you urgently have to write a paper but your head just won't let you? That's the problem I have at the moment. Writing plays a big part in my life and I just miss the free writing. In school there are so many restrictions about how to write and nothing ever seems to be good enough. My teacher says I seem to have a problem with formal and informal English, well duh! I want to write the way I want to and I don't want to be attached to some rules. Every person has their own writing technique and I would just really appreciate it if mine was accepted for a change. Writing for me is writing with the heart and of course with the brains. But more important, everything that is inside you is just being poured out on paper. This is what writing is for me. I stopped being too hard on myself due to the fact that my papers and homeworks are never the way they should be and I have given up thinking that I wasn't meant to write at all. That's utter bullshit if you ask me. I will not give up on this until I realise and acknowledge myself that this really isn't meant for me. There are people who don't believe in me and who don't like the fact that I want to head into a writing career, but who cares? It's not like I'm going to see them ever again. Who cares? It's not like I want to be on the very top of things. I mean, okay, NYTimes would be an achievement but that's only a farfetched dream. And since I am no intellectual a future in some small newspaper/magazine editorial office would be just fine for me. But the best thing would be moving to some other country where Journalists aren't being looked down at since I get the feeling that this job doesn't have a good reputation here.

Hence, my goal for now is, write, write and write with the 100% I can give. I know I can do this! My writing might not appeal to everyone but there are a few people that might like it. So, it's not over till it's over.

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Ezzy

Hello Spring :) Hello Future.

FINALLY, Spring says hello this week. The weather forecasts come with good news. It's gonna be lots of sun and warmer weather. FINALLY! I walked through the city today after school and I must say, lots of people took an advantage of the nice weather. Being in the city always makes me curious about people's fashion. I must say, there were a few people that caught my eye although I am still of the opinion that people dress too stereotype again. Where the mainstream at?

Anyways, my day was good. I wrote my last maths exam in my life and I must say it feels good after knowing that maths was not that much of a scary subject this year!
Yes, time is flying by and I am both happy and scared. I will be writing my last exams in my life in some of the subjects ever in the upcoming weeks.
Which makes me think about what I want to do after school even more. Most of the people know that I am really into writing and that I might persue a career as a journalist but most of the people just do not understand why I would go into that direction or why I would choose a subject in university which is practially overcrowded. I just go with the thought that this is what I want to do and it is for my benefit and it is my life. People might judge and might want to give me some advice but at the end of the day it is me who persues that direction. They can judge and talk but in reality who is the person who knows more about one's future? Well, that's me isn't it, if it's my life. It is normal thinking about one's future as in having a fixed job in some company in 5 years' time or so but I do not see myself in that light yet. I am going through my chapters of life step by step. The next big chapter will be my student life at university and I guess, after that the next chapter will be living life as an employed person.

I am one of the people who wants to enjoy life to the fullest and therefore thinking about in which company I want to stay for the rest of my life is nothing that concerns me that much yet. The people at my age want to get the studying over with and head directly into the life of work but I do not roll that way. Before I really want to settle down I want to see the world, travel and make lots of experience in all of life's facettes. I do not want to be a person who's life evolves around their job, money and materialistic things. I would rather enjoy my life and explore and learn things in that sort of the way.

I know I dream big, but who says it is impossible? Life is full of surprises and life is something we should embrace and find joy in it.

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Ezzy

You said, ask and you will receive, whatever you need

Lent: 40 days of Fasting

Today at Ashwednesday it is lent again. I have decided to fast Facebook for 40 days which is more or less the challenge I have to face. I am actually looking forward to fasting since I really want to find out if I can pull through. I am thinking that it won't be that hard since the next couple of weeks will keep me occupied with school, so let us see, and I am also positive about the fact that the 40 days will fly by. When I looked at my calendar earlier and counted down the 40 days I realised that it is on the Friday of the 15th in April which is the date where my secondary education slowly comes to an end. All grades have to be ready and set on that day which basically means that I would no longer be a student anymore. But I also think that after the lent I will grow so much stronger as a person and that I will become more confident about what my inner strength is capable of.

Not to forget, during lent, you also dedicate yourself to the Lord, that is why I will try my very very best to pray more and harder. I pretty much lift everything up to Him and I trust that He will give me the best I deserve.

All my prayers are with you and
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Ezzy

Today: Practice radical self-worth

by MASTIN KIPP on MARCH 7, 2011

Today is a great day to practice LIVING and ACTING on your self-worth. How? Celebrate spending a little more money on yourself than you normally would. Pamper yourself with a little extra love. Take yourself out to a fancy restaurant and, if you’re feelin’ it, bring a friend or a special someone and treat them, too.

Exercise the abundance that’s in your life, now. Be a living expression of what’s good, what’s great and what’s possible in this life.

Instead of thinking you aren’t worth a purchase, a greater wage or love, know that you deserve the best in all areas of your life. The best can only show up if you expect it and allow it in. Activate the dormant radness around you by acting “as if” the life you want to live is already here.

Today, celebrate yourself by taking radical care of yourself. Give your body the healthiest foods and hang out with people who support your dreams. Please, DON’T beat yourself up for treating yourself well.

All the good stuff will find you when you decide you are worth letting it in. You’d be surprised how much greatness is at your fingertips, right now.

Let it in.

Love, Mastin

From TheDailyLove: http://thedailylove.com/today-practice-radical-self-worth/

Mindset: It's with the brains not with the heart

I have realised that I have yet so much to learn.
Sometimes when situations do not quite begin at usual terms but at rather unusual and complicated terms, it might be smart not let your heart determine the situation but rather your brain. If the situation leaves you confused or unsuspecting because feelings were involved there might not be another way out of the situation than having to deal with it in an uncomfortable way. The principles your mind was set on have faded away because you were too naive to think that nothing big will change but then when it suddenly comes differently you feel stuck and dumb and stupid because your brain should have stuck to the principles and ideologies in the first place but your heart took over the decisions you made.
And yet again I had to learn things the uncomfortable way. Things that will be worthwhile are never easy. You just have to work hard so you can say you've fully deserved what you wanted. And often it's the case that it's not only you who is involved. Another person can be involved too and it's your task to consider them as well.

In conclusion, it's with the brains, not with the heart at the moment. All I can say is that my heart will have its performance any time soon and that with a 100% guarantee.

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Ezzy

Think happy thoughts

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OIIIDDAAAA TAUNNZZZ!

A couple of days ago, Austria chose its representative for the upcoming Eurovision Songcontest. It is somewhat a rarity to find really good acts here in Austria even though there a lots and lots of potential musicians around. However, especially in shows like this, people just don't seem to choose the right one. Nadine Beiler, who eventually ended up winning the position of representing Austria during the Eurovision, just doesn't seem right to me at all. Nothing against her talent and her incredible beautiful and strong voice, but nowadays, people would rather like to be entertained than being touched, especially with younger viewers. Anyways, 'Trackshittaz' took the second place even though, in my opinion, they should've represented Austria. Their music is really catchy and in Upper Austrian dialect BUT it has charm and their song is deffo an earwig. Check it out and enjoy!



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Ezzy